Thank you for loving me. Even when I have had so many douts about us your still there for me, you make me smile and even though we have had some hard times and we have both screwed up big time I know that your there for me no matter what. You are my best friend, you have been there for me when no one else has or when it seemed like no one else was. When I start to pull away from you because I'm hurting you some how just know and hold me and comfort me. You know all my darkest secrets and you still love me.
Sometimes I'm really not sure how you do it, I'm tough sometimes, extremely stuborrn and have been hurt far to many times. Yet you stick it out and make me realize that you're there for me no matter what and that your never going to leave. I don't know what the future holds, but I will always love you. <3

I pinky promise

When things get tough always know that I'm here for you no matter what. Through thick and thin I'll always be by your side. Even when you move away I'll talk to you all the time, I'll visit you often and even though sometimes I`m not pysically there with you always know in your heart I will be with you, I`m just a call away. Yeah sometimes I have my days but no matter what I always put other people before myself, some people told me that I should work on that and focus on myself, and yes sometimes I should but when I see someone hurting worse then I am I go out of my way to try to help them.

When we first became friends I had no idea how much you would mean to me, you know everything about me and I hope I know everything about you to. Sometimes I feel like we're drifting apart and it sucks but with both of us working on that I'm sure we won't because if we do, well lets just say I'll be visiting you often..

When I see you hurting or you have this plan in your head, even though I can't I want you to know that I would do anything to take that away. I hate seeing you like that and would do anything to make it all go away. Trust me when I say I'm not leaving because even though everyone else left I'm not those people. I care about you and I know how much it hurts for someone to leave. Trust me ok? I am NEVER going to leave. I won't let that happen.

I pinky promise and pinky promises should never be broken. <3

Life is too short to wake up in regrets

This is one of my favourite quotes for a lot of reasons, it shows me that life is short so why waste time regreting things that you have done? I know I regret a lot of things but that's no reason to dwell on them. You have to love the people who treat you right and if they don't treat you right then what's the point in keeping them in your life when they hurt you? A person may treat you badly every now and then, but they still love you and they are just expressing how they feel about a situation. These words are amazing and every time I'm not in a very good mood then I go look at this quote and it reminds me to stop thinking about the past. The past is the past, there is nothing you can do to change what happened.

Nobody said that life would be easy, it is definatly not easy. There are so many things that people struggle with everyday but learning your weaknessess is the first step to making that step forward in a good future.

Hurt

Being hurt sucks, if its pysically or emotionally it still sucks. It honestly is the worst feeling in the world when you have a broken toe or heart. Some people don't understand why you are hurt emotionally by something, sometimes it's hard for someone to put themself into your shoes and walk for 10 miles. People just don't get it. Emotional pain is far more difficult to explain then a pysical pain, "I broke my toe, falling down the stairs" is a lot easier then saying "You've hurt me". Either way all we can do is try not to let this emotional pain build up, we don't have to tell everyone exactly how we feel sometimes people feel obligated to, but you don't have to. Maybe try venting out to a book by writing, or playing a musical instrument, going for a walk anything to calm down and realize that this won't last forever.

2012

I've been thinking about everything that happened the past year, the good and the bad and even though somethings you can forgive but not forget, not trust some people, and completly trust new people, it's time to let go of everything. The past is the past, there's no point in dragging it out. Me and my friends are writing how each day went in 2013 and then in 2014 we are going to read them all, to see how it went, so far its going great I know we will probably forget to write but it will be worth a try, I think that it is a great idea because then if your angry we can write instead of bringing that anger on ourself. 2013 is a time for change, a new you, new chances and a time to choose new things, and make new decisions. Pick whats best for you, and what you want to do, not what others want you to do. The past is the past, it's time to let go

Take a Chance, Make a Change

  I've been thinking about some things resently and I have decided to take a chance and make a change for myself, I Am Not going to over think everything anymore. Whats the point? people will tell you if they don't like you or you will get very strong feelings that they do not like you, your true friends will stick by you, and if not then I guess they aren't so true after all, I will learn to accept myself as I am, I will change for the better. I am through being that weak little girl, the one everyone has to tipitoe around, I am done trying to make everyone like me, if you don't like me then don't talk to me. I would rather people hate me for who I am then love me for who I'm not. Sure sometimes feelings and emotions are extremely overwhelming but I know that I have friends that love me and a terrific boyfriend and they would do anything to make me happy, and I would do the same for all of them. I want to make a change and I am going to take baby steps up the ladder to be the person that I want to be, I want to be what I picture myself as, I want to be the amazing person everyone thinks I am and I am trying, I will acomplish that. I want to take that chance and make that change.<3

New Year, New Start

New Years Eve is comming and I like to think of it as a new start to the new year. my new years resolution is every month at the end for 2-3 days go vegan to clear out all the toxins out, also to take care of myself first. I'm not sure why I chose these but I know that I am going to stick to it and make it work, I hope that whoever is reading this will pick a resolution to challange yourself and to try to make a better you. This is a new start to the year so go out and make it worth while.