Take a Chance, Make a Change

  I've been thinking about some things resently and I have decided to take a chance and make a change for myself, I Am Not going to over think everything anymore. Whats the point? people will tell you if they don't like you or you will get very strong feelings that they do not like you, your true friends will stick by you, and if not then I guess they aren't so true after all, I will learn to accept myself as I am, I will change for the better. I am through being that weak little girl, the one everyone has to tipitoe around, I am done trying to make everyone like me, if you don't like me then don't talk to me. I would rather people hate me for who I am then love me for who I'm not. Sure sometimes feelings and emotions are extremely overwhelming but I know that I have friends that love me and a terrific boyfriend and they would do anything to make me happy, and I would do the same for all of them. I want to make a change and I am going to take baby steps up the ladder to be the person that I want to be, I want to be what I picture myself as, I want to be the amazing person everyone thinks I am and I am trying, I will acomplish that. I want to take that chance and make that change.<3

New Year, New Start

New Years Eve is comming and I like to think of it as a new start to the new year. my new years resolution is every month at the end for 2-3 days go vegan to clear out all the toxins out, also to take care of myself first. I'm not sure why I chose these but I know that I am going to stick to it and make it work, I hope that whoever is reading this will pick a resolution to challange yourself and to try to make a better you. This is a new start to the year so go out and make it worth while.

Thank you.

 

Ever feel like you meet someone and that is exactly how you don't want to be? That is how I feel about some people. I know I don't want to be like them and I know I never want to turn out like that. I don't know how some people can go and talk crap about their "best friend" If they were your best friend then they wouldn't be talking about you in that way. I know we all have flaws but that doesn't mean that your "friend" should be talking about you like that. Some people need to lose something before they realize that what they had was good, and sometimes people don't even realize it, this makes me really sad because they lost their friend and they don't care.

Some people need to learn how to appreacite the small things that we do for them, because it's a lot of small things that add up to a big one. Most people may be thinking, Oooh who cares about the small things. But I know I care about the little things that people do for me, liking a picture on facebook, texting me something nice, complimenting me in some way when they know I'm having a bad day, because all those small things can help someone when they need it.

All I know is that I am so thankful for all those people who showed me what I don't want to be.

The sun will come up..

Ever feel like you don't know when the sun will rise for you, that you don't know when the darkness will end? Trust me you are not alone. Everyone goes through this at one point or another and trust me it does get better. You have to believe that the sun will rise and you will be kissed by the sun once again. Even in your darkest moments you have to stay strong and not give into the darkness, you have to stay strong for so many people because so many people care about you.

Drawing

I love drawing, it acts as a stress reliever for me and it also gives me a chance to take my mind off of things. Even though I am not the greatest at drawing I still love to do it, it takes practice but with a little work you'll get better. Above is a picture I drew of Marilyn Monroe, she is my inspiration I look up to her because she shows that society is ugly, pressuring people into looking and dressing a certian way. If I could meet anyone living or dead it would be her, she taught me how to love my body and accept myself for who I am.

Real friends

Everyone needs true friends, unforunatly some people aren't as real as you think. You only find out who your true friends are when your dealing with something and you need them there for you, and they leave. It sucks, but you have to remember that its for the best and that they weren't meant to be your friend. There are so many people out there that you want to trust and you want them to be your friend, but they won't be there when you need them the most. I have been through this, I was going through some stuff and luckly I chose the right side, where I have a friend that loves and cares about me and would do anything to help me.
If you have a friend that you know won't be there for you when you need them, then I think you should find better friends, because when you need a shoulder to cry on or someone to vent to they won't be there. As harsh as that sounds, but you deserve better and there are so many people out there that are willing to be your friend all you have to do is talk to people and you have a new friend

Blogging..

I haven't been blogging lately, I haven't been in the right state of mind and I don't want my blogs to be depressing and hurtful to anyone who is reading them. I love blogging, it is a great way to vent and it also takes your mind off of things. I have wrote a couple blogs, not posting them because I just needed to vent, thats what I do. Call me weird I don't care, it helps me don't knock it before you try it. So an update I am loving the winter here up in Canada, everything looks so pretty and sparkly and it also looks refreshing. I love the look of winter, I hate being cold but I deal with it because I know it's just a passing thing. Like many of the other things I have been going through I know that it will all pass and eventually the sun will come out.

I have to say that to my best friend that is reading this, I love you so much you have helped me through so many things I can't even possibly explain. My best friend is the one who told me about creating a blog, that its good for venting and it helps and at first I said "I don't know maybe" and then I finally made one and I'm so happy I did because it helps so much and I love blogging.

I don't know what to blog about I have so many things that I want to say but for now I will just say that anyone out there that is reading this and is having a rough time with anything at all, create a blog, it helps so much, you can get everything off your chest and it feels great. You don't have to publish it even just writing helps some people, don't knock it before you try it :)